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"Uneasy lies the head that wears the crown..." Wm.Shakespeare
Well it's been ten months now I've been wearing Sanzo's robes, at least here in this little world... can't say I'm a beginner at RP anymore, although I still feel like it. I have now at one time or another, between here and LiveJournal, played all of the Ikkou, Shien, Kanzeon Bosatsu, Kenren, Konzen, and three OC's - one new one in a RP just started that is Naruto, not even Saiyuki (they let me make up an OC there, bless 'em.)

The most important thing I think I have to say is how much I have learned about myself by playing Sanzo... it has totally surprised me, and been a completely unexpected benefit of this role-playing endeavor. The good friends I have made is another thing, and also incredibly wonderful, but that happens when you spend this much time with people you share this much common interest with: totally fantastic, but not unexpected (but man, am I glad I have met them!) But the self-knowledge I have gained in the past ten months from this is more than I think I ever got from any equivalent time of therapy, or journaling, or other activities that are supposed to help you figure things out about yourself. Maybe it was fate that dumped the role of the mad monk in my lap, and that so much of him seems to be what I needed to discover about myself, in this particularly difficult time of my life. I suspect Sanzo might say that is so much bullshit...

but Koumyou would probably laugh and tell him there are no accidents...

I heard this song and thought it summed up very well what it feels like living inside Sanzo's head - to me it even has overtones of the Buddhist theology he would have assimilated. This is the Sanzo that wants all that Gojyo has to offer so very badly...and has such a hard time expressing that need...


DARKNESS
(Jesse Colin Young)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=030ZpykP5Z0

Darkness, Darkness, be my pillow, Take my head and let me sleep
In the coolness of your shadow, In the silence of your deep
Darkness, darkness, hide my yearning, For the things I cannot see
Keep my mind from constant turning, To the things I cannot be
Darkness, darkness, be my blanket, cover me with the endless night
Take away the pain of knowing, fill the emptiness with light
Emptiness with light now

Darkness, darkness, long and lonesome, Is the day that brings me here
I have felt the edge of sadness, I have known the depths of fear
Darkness, darkness, be my blanket, Cover me with the endless night
Take away this pain of knowing, Fill this emptiness with light now
Emptiness with light now

Darkness, darkness, be my blanket, cover me with the endless night
Take away this pain of knowing, fill this emptiness with light now
Oh with light now.
Darkness, Darkness, be my pillow, Take my head and let me sleep
In the coolness of your shadow, In the silence of your deep

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Postscript: I am also a participant in several other threads here on this site, some closed (but still readable), some open. All are Saiyuki-related except for one active one just begun that is a Naruto RP. All of these can be accessed from my watchlist.

For more information about these RP's or to contact me, you may feel free to message me here or at LiveJournal. Also to read my fanfiction, which is primarily yaoi, and Saiyuki, but expanding into other fandoms, feel free to visit my LiveJournal account at http://helliongoddess.livejournal.com/


thanks, and peace,

HG